don’t worry. it’s just me, peeking out the window…

finally, i got my pc in a whole package. i did my research, i got my source… yet, i’m still stuck. haven’t found anything to write and the clock is ticking…

on a darker note. i want to ask something…

guys… is the coast already cleared from morons?
no? can’t tell?

oh well. *shrughs shoulder*… I guess you gotta live with it. Bleh

hm. maen api emang enak. kalo kecil anget.

tapi kalo terlalu besar. bisa kebakaran.

saat ini. masih anget.

api yang lo nyalain jadi hiburan buat gue.

so. untuk saat ini. gw akan letakkan koma besar di alinea berikut. antara
gw sama lo…

gw rasa itu cukup. biar tetep anget.

in case of emergency. break the glass…

and oh yea. i’ll break the glass.

you can fuckin try me.

i’ll see how far you’d go…


I’ve been trying to escape from a few things. And I
did, I manage to escape, but not unscathed. I had to make few sacrifices….
some part of me of, things that seemed glorious, became darkened.

I read it somewhere… Past is the thing that shaped us
today and things that what we did today… are those that would mold our

Metaphorically speaking…. Trees grew higher…
people change, I know that. I did.

I held my sheer conscience high until I realized that
the world is not as simple black and white. Almost everything were ambiguous,
and relatives. Then I became skeptical, among those geniuses who always have
the last laugh based on our logic calculation, and most of time, in
fear-the-worst-wise speaking, we often won the bet.

A hint about skeptical people, we cheer on faulty
result, we were right! And if we were wrong…. We simply laughed at our own
fear; our tragedy is the best joke at any given day. You can ask us about any
logic consideration. We’d give you a free competitive and insightful advice….
counseling doubts are our areas of expertise…

Again, people did change.

Or at least they thought so…. Or maybe I just did… An
old fuckin tale, when you thought you’ve changed, suddenly shitty stuff
happens… and now. I’m fuckin tired…

Maybe, I’ve come to the point where I couldn’t care even less… The misunderstanding
was way beyond fiasco. And the finger of accusation was pointed at me, still,
not even considering how logic I used to act. And that’s just ironically

Maybe. I should stop listening. Just. Stop…

Shit! Where’s the silence when you need it…

Shit! I ramble too much…